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Name: Mei
Country: United States
State: Alabama
Birthday: 9/19/1987
Gender: Male
Occupation: Student
Industry: Entertainment
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Member Since:
7/20/2002
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| So tell me, anyone remember this? 
Probably not, just digging around through my old images and shit. Anyway, life is good. Damn good. | | |
| So, there's a lot going through my mind, nothing in particular, just random thoughts. I find myself shifting through happiness and sadness quite often. In attempt to break myself away from the negativity, I went back to the thing that kept me through the worst. It was about 1 in the morning, I was a little gloomy from the things that happened on the ride home, mainly because my mind kept jumping to conclusions about events that probably aren't going to occur to begin with. I figured, hell I have a lot of stuff kept inside, I'll hop in the showers and sulk, drown it out or something. Didn't work. So I sat here, with headphones on at full blast while my fiancee is knocked out on the bed. Yea, you read that right. I've been engaged for almost 2 years now. Anyhow, I was reading my past entries and I stumbled upon the one that gave a description about my name. It mentioned that if I let a bad habit slide, it usually becomes a pain in the ass to get rid of, so to speak. It made me reflect on life. About the things I once had and the moments I had that meant a lot to me. Mainly friends and my 1st love. Most of the friends I once knew are all but strangers to me now. My first love? I turned my back on it for some time, kind of rusty, but it won't be long before my body becomes familiar with it again. All this stuff that I'm typing isn't supposed to flow smoothly, like I said, its all just random thoughts that pop up now and then. I feel like I've gained a lot throughout the years and also lost a lot. Some reason, right now feels like I'm at a stand still. Feels like life isn't going anywhere right now. I don't know, too damn pessimistic at the moment I guess. Back to the whole headphone thing at full blast. I tapped back into the old me, the one who was care free, never let anything hold him down, remained headstrong. You know, the motivated guy who was always out to prove that he could do something big. It was such a strong flame then, its kind of dim now. That'll change though. Especially with how things turned out. I didn't want to sit and sulk anymore, so I got comfortable, got myself back into the swing of things, and just let go. I haven't actually danced in a while, as in, seriously danced. I tried to get back into it, but I felt like I was just selling myself short of something I used to be. The heart and passion for it wasn't there anymore. I remember I used it as an outlet to break away from the world. Whenever I wanted to run, it was there. I call it my first love because it was. It was more than a friend, the passion I had for it. It will never betray me, ridicule me, leave me. It was always there for me when I needed to let me emotions run wild. So, I let the beat take hold of me and made sure that it didn't let go. It felt good, the warmth, that feeling of your heart pounding, the intensity of the snare and the clap being the only thing you hear. That feeling I once had came back to me. I like it. A lot. | | |
| Wah...so you guys still exists?! Lol, jk. Well, its nice to get some feedback, eh? Sup all, how is everyone? | | |
| ...but here goes. Anyway, I'm guessing this is something I post up and anyone thats in the same blogring should be able to read this right? If not, then hell, thats one hell of a waste of time typing this. Back to the point, as a long retired member of Xanga and Soompi, I figured I'd return and see if any of the oldschool members are still around. I'd say, '02-'04, give or take a few extra years or so. Not really expecting much of a reply or anything, but if your still around and you remember, I'd just like to say, "Sup." Although I'm sure everyone has probably moved over to Myspace(meh..) -MoJoMeiMei | | |
| Hm, we can finally call it a year now. Pretty badass, don't you think? Doesn't seem like its been a year, huh? Well, guess what? It is! Muhahaha. Although this entry isn't on the exact date, it's good enough. Anyways, I just want to say that it's been a great year. There's been moments when we've had to go through hard times and emotional suffering, but throughout it all, we pulled through and stayed with eachother side by side. I guess I can say that I'm thankful, although I don't think thankful is the word, its more like, blessed. Yea, I'm blessed. Blessed to have such a wonderful person step into my life and into my heart. I've shared a lot of things with you, and you've done the same with me. You are my first for many things, just like I am the same for you. You give me reasons to be happy in life, as a matter of fact, you are the reason to why I am happy. Because of you, life just seems all the more optimistic and for that I'd like to thank you. I thank you for being there for me when I needed someone to turn to, for giving me the feeling of knowing that I can always rely on you, for being my motivation when I couldn't move on any further, for never losing hope in me, for never losing up in us, for lifting me off the ground and making me feel higher than the clouds, but most importantly, for letting me love you the way you love me. Life is beautiful knowing that I can share each day with you. I know we still have a long way to go, and that doesn't bother me at all. Although our relationship is still in its early stages, I wouldn't change it for anything in the world. You turned "I" into "we" and "me" into "us". We still have a long way to go, and we've made it this far without regrets. Hand-in-hand, we can continue on living eachday and making the flower of our love bloom into a more beautiful relationship as time passes by. What more can I say? I love you baby. =)
-Mei | | |
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